help wanted

so im kinda asking for advice....from anyone really.

for those of you who have been keeping up to date will now the postion im in with my host mum. we have just been talking for a long time about everything....i mean EVERYTHING. putting everything on the table. i think shes pretty happy now. my host dad doesnt want me to leave....but im grateful that ive already packed my bags and im still counting down till i get to leave this place.

i feel like im going crazy here. but after talking with my host mum today, its become apparent that, yes she is still using me for english, but she wants me to stay for a different experience as well. my host dad is really cool and hes told me that he likes me being here. I still feel like i have to go though. im definatly still thinking about leaving...my host mum hasnt thrown all her toys yet, after her strange mood swing friday night with the french, shes back to english (even mixing in french for my benefit), I dont know whos the better actress; her with her mood swings, or me being brave and smiling for everyone when im different on the inside.

So heres my question....do i stay and see what we can sort out through adult like discussions and meetings....or do i pack my bags and run away from the crazy lady when we get back from the cruise?

and completely off subject...another question.......ive had an infected belly button piercing for a while now...and i cant change the bar...ive tryed everything...any ideas to either change the bar or make it not hurt??

lol im random......

..................cos off topic again.it snowed HEAPS today...everything is white and with the xmas decorations its sooo cool. gonna go and take a walk with my camera now :)